Today probably ranks in one of the top-10 worst days of my life, and for me, that is really saying something. My morning was wretched, my afternoon was over-stressed, and my evening-oh god. I wont rant to you about my whole day, but I feel that you should probably know what happened with the last post and everything.
So my third day of work downtown ended, and my dad couldn’t pick me up because he had to go to a gambler’s anonymous meeting (another long story), so he had me fend for myself without telling my mother and without telling me how to get home. I have already been traumatized with transit and really do not like to use it very much, and I have never used it alone downtown. Why am I afraid of transit? Oh, it might be the fact that every time I use it alone or specifically for downtown without a large group of people, something horrific always happens. Drunks getting roudy and over-touchy-feely, someone passing out, someone having a seizure, and my favourite, watching someone commit suicide right before my eyes as I waited for my train, using the train I was waiting for as their method of choice. I hate transit.
So anyways, he gives me the wrong bus to catch and I end up getting off right in the center of “Crack Haven;” one of the most dangerous parts of downtown. As I wait for what I am hoping to be the right bus to get me somewhere I can catch the 408, three thug-like fellows come up to me. They call me “butterfly” and ask me to join them. When I ignore them one touches my shoulder and I shrug it off, realizing that this was very bad and I needed to get somewhere where there was more people stat. As I try and limp away (my foot still isn’t healed and so I still have this giant cast), one quickly jogs to where I’m limping. His words? “Looks like our butterfly has a broken wing.” Well, at least they were poetic. Right as he was commenting on how I couldn’t “fly away,” the bus came and they backed off, I’m guessing because of the witnesses. The bus stop was right by an alley way. If that bus had come 30 seconds later, I would have been dragged in there. I hate transit.
The sad thing is that is only half of the story. I get on the bus and thank God for helping me. Turns out it goes where I need it to and I transfer to my desired bus. Then, just as I am almost home, I watch a car/motorcycle accident occur right before my eyes. the car did two 360s as the two passengers of the motorcycle flew off the bike and hit the concrete road hard. Someone in the bus screams. The bus stops and makes a mini barricade as someone calls 911. Some get out and try to find a way to help. Others stay in the vehicle, unsure. I had watched the impact and the crack of the man’s spine as the car hit him. I had gone up to them both to find neither breathing. The bus driver and two passengers who were nurses coming home from work tried to do the best that they could. I couldn’t watch them try and breathe life into the lifeless corpses. As soon as the people who do real barricades came I ran as fast as a person in a walking cast could. I ran and dry heaved and cried all the way over to the path I have tred so many times beside the highway (it eventually leads to my house). I silently watched from there until the police arrived, rationalizing my running to only that I didn’t want to be questioned by anyone, and, in consequence, relive it, rather than my initial thoughts of I need to get away I need to get away. I tried not to puke when they hauled the bodies off the street. I tried not to cry as i called my mother and told her what happened, limping away from the scene and trying not to look conspicuous. I tried so hard to be strong and not break down for the third, fourth and fifth time in front of her that day, each being more a failure than the last. I tried not to sob myself into oblivion at the park, breaking down for the 10th time that day. I tried to stay calm when my mother brought me to Chapters to help me stop the dry-heaving cycle. I tried so hard.
I hate transit.
June 29th, 2011.
PS. I’m alright right now. I just wanted to explain what happened today. Please, don’t worry about me. I’ll be okay. Don’t worry, alright?
…and now I’m sitting in chapters trying not break down for the 11th time today. I’ll explain when I’m feeling a little more stable.
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I almost hate to ask - but is there a fanfiction archive for the French Revolution? I know almost everything’s going to be crap - but I wouldn’t mind taking a look…
Uh, depends. Do you want Saint-Just and Robespierre having sex?
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oh… my…. gosh… XD i love the internet.
Well, besides the morning overload of information, everything went quite well! Though, I have to admit I was a bit worried when right as I was about to enter I hear my boss talking with the other lawyers I’m working for saying: “No no, I said HAZE her! not TAZE her!!” and the chorus of aww’s afterwards XD haha. Everyone ended up being really nice, and I learned a lot :) Because of today, I am excited for tomorrow now rather than afraid XD huzzah!
Now… off to clean XP
Remember calculus? Calculus was tough!!
being sneaky at work. shhhh….
Because I’m a horrible person. XD I miss you dear <3 And I should probably shut up before I start sprouting out the darndest things xD love you child~
I honestly wish I could pull off “cute,” but I can’t to save my life. Cute just isn’t my body-type. I can be everything but cute, thus, I envy cuteness. Perhaps I’ll be an albino bunny in the next life, so all I’ll ever be is cute. Ha. I wish. xD
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