Tonight is a night that the world must be taken into effect and brought into our place. It is a long time before we must go on. ‘Our evening may be blessed.
The bed was too soft, and I drowned in it.
Brushed my feet ceremoniously
And left till morning
I had to say it
To the body beside me
The words were novocaine
And cold air seeped into my skin
Like it had finally come home from chasing cheeks and fingertips in the snow
And once uttered, the heart left me
I could not jump out of my skin when they awoke
There was no reason to jump
No reason to laugh
“I’m so tired.”
I wish I was paid in sentient blue fish made out of jelly that floated when they wanted to.
I wish my clients were cats in zoot suits and life gamblers with death dice.
I wish there was a Marketplace For The Weird And Wonderful that took place when everything was asleep.
I wish I was the only human body there.
1. Nightmare disorder: When the occasional nightmare becomes a common problem, so you wake up in a sweat or you’re afraid to go to sleep, then you could be suffering from nightmare disorder. According to the American Sleep Association, stress and sleep deprivation are the main triggers for this disorder.
2. Sleep walking: The causes of sleep walking are not fully known – although genetics, broken sleep and stress are thought to play a role. Sleepwalkers open doors, move their furniture around, and move from room to room with no trouble at all. According to the Journal of Molecular Psychiatry, 19 percent of adult sleepwalkers have been injured while sleep walking. The main risks are tripping and falling.
3. Exploding head syndrome: This disorder occurs at the onset of deep sleep, when a loud noise awakens up someone who’s just fallen asleep. These sounds range from explosives going off inside their head, to cymbals crashing loudly, right next to their bed. Of course, there’s no actual sound – so it’s all a mystery. The person’s not at risk - and there’s no obvious cause.
4. Hypnagogic hallucinations: These occur as the person is falling sleep or at the end of the night as they start to waken up. The person’s sure they can hear voices, or they experience strange sensations, or they report seeing people or weird objects in the room. A common vision sufferers have is seeing small animals or thinking they see bugs crawling over the walls. According to the American Sleep Association, these kinds of sleep-related hallucinations are most frequently reported in people with narcolepsy.
5. Night terrors: This is where the person (and most commonly a child) starts to scream, thrash around, or to pace about the room. However, they can’t be wakened up or be comforted. They are trapped in this world that is threatening to them. Night terrors are different from nightmares as they occur in non-REM sleep (the deepest type of sleep that occurs early at night). Although the cause is still unknown, fever and stress may play a role.
6. Sleep paralysis: This occurs in REM sleep, later on in the night, when the person is having a very vivid dream - but is also temporarily immobilised. Thus, although they want to move or to quickly run away they find they’re paralysed, and are rooted to the spot. Often sleep paralysis and sleep hallucinations occur simultaneously. Common images and sensations include sensing an evil presence in the room, or feeling they’re being crushed or choked. In Newfoundland, Canada, this is known as the “Old Hag”; in China, it’s called “the ghost pressing down on you”; and in Mexico, it is described as being “the dead climbing on top of you.”
7. REM behaviour disorder: This occurs during REM sleep, where the sleeper starts to act out the content of their dreams. Thus, they may get out of bed and then start to run around; or they may scream and yell, or they may start to get dressed. It is seen most in older adults, and especially in those who’ve been diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease.
8. Nocturnal eating disorder: People diagnosed with this sleep disorder go on eating binges when they’re fast asleep. Some chop up meat and vegetables, or turn on the stove, and then go back to bed without tidying up the mess. Others eat raw foods like onions or fresh meat, or they eat frozen food or unusual types of food (like margarine straight from the margarine tub). Like sleepwalking, it occurs during non-REM sleep. There is no known cause.
Finally a breakthrough.
and not only does your body convulse once on initial impact, it convulses once for the feet, travels up for the second in the toosh, and finishes with your arms spread wide for a railing that doesn’t exist?
No one knows the answer as to why one must sleep, but ‘how’ has much simpler answers to excavate. If one can quiet their mind from all the millions of thoughts, worries, delusions, wishes, hopes, and the occasional embarrassments that occur in the lives they lead; if one can keep still and calm in the raging waters, waiting for their brainstorms to subside with the last exhausting clap of thunderous thought, and allow themselves to sink into the new stillness without stirring the waters, sleep can be achieved. It truly is a miracle each of us can perform this amazing feat every single day! Sometimes more than once! However, the real question one must ask them-self is: is how do you dream?